I took this picture at 3:16pm CST, on February 2nd, 2012.
I was on the NW corner of State and Adams in downtown Chicago, facing south.
I had just met with my accountant with regards to filing my 2011 income taxes, and had given him my financial documents for the year.
I was angry at my ex-wife for countless terrible things she did to me, and continued to do to me. I looked forward to a day when I wouldn’t be affected by her, or at least affected by her significantly less.
I was mad at my lawyer for doing a horrid job of representing me in the divorce. I was still paying her back for the hours she spent doing an awful job.
I was mad at the lawyer of my ex, who, despite knowingly participating in our “collaborative” divorce, did everything in her power to act as a combative litigation attorney. (A side note, our case was the last collaborative divorce case she handled).
I wished there was something I could do to make things better.
I was so angry and mad at everything. I was mad at how little money I had.
But it was sunny out. There was a breeze. That made me happy.
And, I had just gotten off the phone with my fiancé. I felt lots of love for her. We talked about the weekend. She was very busy at work that day. I felt for her and wanted to make her feel better.
I didn’t take a picture because what I was seeing down State Street was particularly interesting or beautiful.
I wanted to remember this moment for some reason.
I was there.
I could so hear the sunshine and the breeze in your voice…and I wanted to jump out the window–to be with you, that is. Okay, I wanted to jump out the window. And be with you. But I couldn’t do both. I couldn’t do either really. These windows are sealed shut, and now I know why.
The day is almost over, the fires are almost extinguished, and I am almost out the door on my way home to you. …I’m going to have to work tonight, though…*sigh*
Oh, also, I took a picture from the corner of State and Madison today when I slipped out to get a sandwich (at 2 freaking thirty–which I ate at my desk, barely chewing)…I’ll Instagram the photo. I liked all the red and white that was in my visual field (Office Depot sign included) as I walked down State. Thanks, City of Chicago, for the wonderful Valentines Day banners!